Happiness and pain

"But her strong sense that neither she nor any human being deserved less than was given, did not blind her to the fact that there were others receiving less who had deserved much more. And in being forced to class herself among the fortunate she did not cease to wonder at the persistence of the unforeseen, when the one to whom such unbroken tranquility had been accorded in the adult stage was she whose youth had seemed to teach that happiness was but the occasional episode in a general drama of pain."

- Thomas Hardy, The Mayor of Casterbridge

"Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye. I hate goodbyes. I know what I need; I need more hellos."

-Charlie Brown

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up

growing up doesn't necessarily mean absence of fun or sense of child-likeness, does it? God, i hope not. here's to happiness and learning from our mistakes and accepting responsibilities. and realities. and possibilities. and impossibilities. and other words that end in -ilities. and love.

currently at urbanoutfitters.com

and browsing through the women's dresses, which, to be honest, i would be doing even if they didn't have hot girls modeling them. merely a bonus. :) there are some amazingly designed pieces that make me wish that i was a student at fidm. and not because of the extreme ratio of males to females attending. merely a bonus. :)

i miss working at starbucks

"I just think it's bad when a boy looks at a girl and thinks that the way he sees the girl is better than the girl actually is."

-Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

dementors

must be in the vicinity today :(

hate love hate

love apparently isn't for me. but does that necessarily mean no happy ending? i'd like to think not. but this is one instance where i wish i still had a best friend to turn to/confide in. i also wish i had a better entry written under "love" but it may never get past this point. buying faux sunshine off shelves. instructions: "just add water". chemical rainbows and singing birds over the chaotic and disastrous streets in my head. confused, happy, and disappointed at the same time and having high hopes that maybe this is a temporary quarter-life crisis, but also trying to analyze wth is going on.

sinking feeling, shooting flares hoping you'll notice and throwing compasses overboard hoping you'll find me -- i really hope you do because you make me smile when it's hard to.

continually praying that He reveals Himself more to me and gives me wisdom to understand the situations He places me in, as well as comprehend that there is more to love than what i currently (don't) know. that His love is all i need, to find overflowing contentment in that and to consider anything else as an added blessing. this entry might seem bi-polar. it isn't. it is.

i got your love letters, corrected the grammar, and sent them back; it's true, romance is dead, I shot it in the chest then in the head

Jim: So as it turns out, I may not have done so hot on my customer reviews this year.

Pam: Maybe it's 'cause you spent the whole year flirting with the receptionist.

Jim: Little bit. Worth it.

"creativity takes courage"

has anybody realized that cathy nguyen's immense popularity comes without a single original song? just an observation. harsh name drop, but every performer in the "circle" has at least one song written, right? Someone correct me if i'm wrong.

edit: so cathy proved me wrong by singing an amazing original song via blogtv... the way we've been corresponding lately kind of leads me to believe that she's read this post but i hope she didn't because now i feel bad. haha. so a million apologies to cathy, but if you DID read this, i only hope it's helped as a sort of constructive criticism? :) love you.

the i am spartacus sessions #003

01. mos def - quiet dog bite hard
02. outkast - in due time feat. cee-lo
03. local natives - sun hands
04. cold war kids - hang me up to dry
05. the fray - how to save a life
06. jaymay - gray or blue
07. jason mraz - if it kills me (the casa nova sessions)
08. the frames - falling slowly
09. gabe bondoc - stronger than
10. alicia keys - lesson learned feat. john mayer
11. meg from disney's hercules - i won't say (i'm in love)
12. death cab for cutie - sound of settling
13. meg and dia - halloween
14. kanye west - street lights