We usually know what decisions we should make

And most of us do whatever the opposite of that decision is because I think, in the moment, it makes us feel better even if in the end, it might not have been the right choice. There’s always this need to distract ourselves from whatever is worrying us, depressing us, hurting us, pissing us off.

Anyway, this is an apology to my lungs. Again.

Moments

These past few weeks consisting of sporadic periods of time each filled with indescribable happiness, a consistent sense of hopelessness in human relationships, incredible bitterness and anger, heart-crushing conviction, indifference, gut-wrenching honesty, guilt-less half-truths, endless and infinite confusion regarding every aspect of everything.

(Il)logical solution equals flavored-smoke-filled lungs and perfectly executed rings.

“These days I just can’t seem to say what I mean. I just can’t. Every time I try to say something, it misses the point. Either that or I end up saying the opposite of what I mean. The more I try to get it right the more mixed up it gets. Sometimes I can’t even remember what I was trying to say in the first place. It’s like my body’s split in two and one of me is chasing the other me around a big pillar. We’re running circles around it. The other me has the right words, but I can never catch her.”

-Haruki Murakami, excerpt from Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman

hope/less

Love. I believe in it less and less. Even good people in love do some messed up ish. And I'm pretty much scum, so yeah, bad situation.

Mac and Devin go to high school

That Snoop Dogg and Wiz Khalifa album is so freakin' chill, man. I really love it's musicality, but wish that it's lyrical content contained more than just their affinity for marijuana and getting high.

Nevertheless, album is on repeat. Haha.

AFG Missionaries 2011 by EZ Nadua

Just blessed to be a part of God's work and to fellowship with his servants.

Andreaaaaa

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It was a happy day.

Shooting this beauty sometime next month if time/fate allows. Please fate, allow. Haha.

So sweeeeet! It will happen.

Fingers crossed. We’ll talk about it in more detail soon. :)

Heart hurts

Taking it out on my lungs.