mindless commercialism aka my christmas wishlist

01. A large map of Lord of the Rings’ Middle Earth for my wall.
02. iTunes gift card so I can buy the Ouran High School Host Club series.
03. A rice cooker for the apartment.
04. Almost anything from the Photojojo.com store. Esp the gift card.
05. Starbucks cards/mugs/food.
06. Anything with polar bears or jellyfish.
07. Personalized anything.

08. A trip to New Orleans.

thanksliving

And sometimes I feel like I should be passionate about certain things in life; like there are things I'm expected to feel passionate about. I don't know how I feel about that. My head/heart hurts. I wrote so much more, but in the end I don't think I was making sense, even to myself. I hope someone understands this. Tomorrow's Thanksgiving. And I am genuinely thankful for all that I have; I'm content. In a sense. Anyway, be well, whoever reads this drivel.

unconventional long distance crushes

1,880 miles apart and she's highlighting most of these days/nights lately.

#haunting

If you think Insidious, evil clowns, or Adrian Valverde's dancing is scary, you clearly haven't seen/heard Katrina Alaia sing "Pumped Up Kicks."

tumblr'd out

Two years later and I am so sick of Tumblr and everybody's "reblogs". Ugh, everybody shut up if you don't have anything original to say or think or post. So, I'm back. Also, I think it's kind of sad I don't even want to transfer anything. Keeping my photography projects on Tumblr though, because their photo layouts are aesthetically pleasing.

Random note: At Starbucks right now, unintentionally eavesdropping on two late-thirty year old women discussing their opinions and predictions on Twilight: Breaking Dawn Part 1 which comes out like next week or something.

Yikes.

crying over spilt milk (tea)

Looks as though Boiling Crab has made it onto on my list of weekly to-do’s, and it’s even better when I get to terrorize those delicious shrimp with amazing company.

Anti-social as of late but Katrina Alaia’s always been the exception. Blessed to have her as a friend, sister, confidante, listener, story-teller, and over-all entertainment. Conversations consisting of but not limited to business education, late-night/early-morning inappropriate laughfests about ridiculous situations, and heartfelt concern and analyzation for difficult ones.

Anyway, nights like this inspire, encourage, and help me feel alive more than you might know. L ya.

P.s. One key moment during dinner: Unintentional inappropriate mass text message from Steph. Gahahahaha.

"Look around you. These are your best friends. These are the people who will open their hearts to you. They all have heart-ons for you."

-Michael Scott

the i am spartacus sessions #004

01. john mayer - 3x5
02. ingrid michaelson - keep breathing
03. regina spektor - better
04. the decemberists - o valencia!
05. shannon campbell - one week (acoustic cover)
06. mos def & talib kweli are black star - astronomy (8th light)
07. lauryn hill - ex-factor
08. common - be
09. janet jackson - together again
10. the weepies - suicide blonde
11. lights - drive my soul
12. priscilla ahn - are we different
13. jon maclaughlin - so close (enchanted ost)
14. sara bareilles - gravity

Happiness and pain

"But her strong sense that neither she nor any human being deserved less than was given, did not blind her to the fact that there were others receiving less who had deserved much more. And in being forced to class herself among the fortunate she did not cease to wonder at the persistence of the unforeseen, when the one to whom such unbroken tranquility had been accorded in the adult stage was she whose youth had seemed to teach that happiness was but the occasional episode in a general drama of pain."

- Thomas Hardy, The Mayor of Casterbridge

"Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye. I hate goodbyes. I know what I need; I need more hellos."

-Charlie Brown

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up

growing up doesn't necessarily mean absence of fun or sense of child-likeness, does it? God, i hope not. here's to happiness and learning from our mistakes and accepting responsibilities. and realities. and possibilities. and impossibilities. and other words that end in -ilities. and love.

currently at urbanoutfitters.com

and browsing through the women's dresses, which, to be honest, i would be doing even if they didn't have hot girls modeling them. merely a bonus. :) there are some amazingly designed pieces that make me wish that i was a student at fidm. and not because of the extreme ratio of males to females attending. merely a bonus. :)

i miss working at starbucks

"I just think it's bad when a boy looks at a girl and thinks that the way he sees the girl is better than the girl actually is."

-Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

dementors

must be in the vicinity today :(

hate love hate

love apparently isn't for me. but does that necessarily mean no happy ending? i'd like to think not. but this is one instance where i wish i still had a best friend to turn to/confide in. i also wish i had a better entry written under "love" but it may never get past this point. buying faux sunshine off shelves. instructions: "just add water". chemical rainbows and singing birds over the chaotic and disastrous streets in my head. confused, happy, and disappointed at the same time and having high hopes that maybe this is a temporary quarter-life crisis, but also trying to analyze wth is going on.

sinking feeling, shooting flares hoping you'll notice and throwing compasses overboard hoping you'll find me -- i really hope you do because you make me smile when it's hard to.

continually praying that He reveals Himself more to me and gives me wisdom to understand the situations He places me in, as well as comprehend that there is more to love than what i currently (don't) know. that His love is all i need, to find overflowing contentment in that and to consider anything else as an added blessing. this entry might seem bi-polar. it isn't. it is.

i got your love letters, corrected the grammar, and sent them back; it's true, romance is dead, I shot it in the chest then in the head

Jim: So as it turns out, I may not have done so hot on my customer reviews this year.

Pam: Maybe it's 'cause you spent the whole year flirting with the receptionist.

Jim: Little bit. Worth it.

"creativity takes courage"

has anybody realized that cathy nguyen's immense popularity comes without a single original song? just an observation. harsh name drop, but every performer in the "circle" has at least one song written, right? Someone correct me if i'm wrong.

edit: so cathy proved me wrong by singing an amazing original song via blogtv... the way we've been corresponding lately kind of leads me to believe that she's read this post but i hope she didn't because now i feel bad. haha. so a million apologies to cathy, but if you DID read this, i only hope it's helped as a sort of constructive criticism? :) love you.

the i am spartacus sessions #003

01. mos def - quiet dog bite hard
02. outkast - in due time feat. cee-lo
03. local natives - sun hands
04. cold war kids - hang me up to dry
05. the fray - how to save a life
06. jaymay - gray or blue
07. jason mraz - if it kills me (the casa nova sessions)
08. the frames - falling slowly
09. gabe bondoc - stronger than
10. alicia keys - lesson learned feat. john mayer
11. meg from disney's hercules - i won't say (i'm in love)
12. death cab for cutie - sound of settling
13. meg and dia - halloween
14. kanye west - street lights