Happiness and pain

"But her strong sense that neither she nor any human being deserved less than was given, did not blind her to the fact that there were others receiving less who had deserved much more. And in being forced to class herself among the fortunate she did not cease to wonder at the persistence of the unforeseen, when the one to whom such unbroken tranquility had been accorded in the adult stage was she whose youth had seemed to teach that happiness was but the occasional episode in a general drama of pain."

- Thomas Hardy, The Mayor of Casterbridge

"Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye. I hate goodbyes. I know what I need; I need more hellos."

-Charlie Brown

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up

growing up doesn't necessarily mean absence of fun or sense of child-likeness, does it? God, i hope not. here's to happiness and learning from our mistakes and accepting responsibilities. and realities. and possibilities. and impossibilities. and other words that end in -ilities. and love.

currently at urbanoutfitters.com

and browsing through the women's dresses, which, to be honest, i would be doing even if they didn't have hot girls modeling them. merely a bonus. :) there are some amazingly designed pieces that make me wish that i was a student at fidm. and not because of the extreme ratio of males to females attending. merely a bonus. :)

i miss working at starbucks

"I just think it's bad when a boy looks at a girl and thinks that the way he sees the girl is better than the girl actually is."

-Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

dementors

must be in the vicinity today :(

hate love hate

love apparently isn't for me. but does that necessarily mean no happy ending? i'd like to think not. but this is one instance where i wish i still had a best friend to turn to/confide in. i also wish i had a better entry written under "love" but it may never get past this point. buying faux sunshine off shelves. instructions: "just add water". chemical rainbows and singing birds over the chaotic and disastrous streets in my head. confused, happy, and disappointed at the same time and having high hopes that maybe this is a temporary quarter-life crisis, but also trying to analyze wth is going on.

sinking feeling, shooting flares hoping you'll notice and throwing compasses overboard hoping you'll find me -- i really hope you do because you make me smile when it's hard to.

continually praying that He reveals Himself more to me and gives me wisdom to understand the situations He places me in, as well as comprehend that there is more to love than what i currently (don't) know. that His love is all i need, to find overflowing contentment in that and to consider anything else as an added blessing. this entry might seem bi-polar. it isn't. it is.

i got your love letters, corrected the grammar, and sent them back; it's true, romance is dead, I shot it in the chest then in the head

Jim: So as it turns out, I may not have done so hot on my customer reviews this year.

Pam: Maybe it's 'cause you spent the whole year flirting with the receptionist.

Jim: Little bit. Worth it.

"creativity takes courage"

has anybody realized that cathy nguyen's immense popularity comes without a single original song? just an observation. harsh name drop, but every performer in the "circle" has at least one song written, right? Someone correct me if i'm wrong.

edit: so cathy proved me wrong by singing an amazing original song via blogtv... the way we've been corresponding lately kind of leads me to believe that she's read this post but i hope she didn't because now i feel bad. haha. so a million apologies to cathy, but if you DID read this, i only hope it's helped as a sort of constructive criticism? :) love you.

the i am spartacus sessions #003

01. mos def - quiet dog bite hard
02. outkast - in due time feat. cee-lo
03. local natives - sun hands
04. cold war kids - hang me up to dry
05. the fray - how to save a life
06. jaymay - gray or blue
07. jason mraz - if it kills me (the casa nova sessions)
08. the frames - falling slowly
09. gabe bondoc - stronger than
10. alicia keys - lesson learned feat. john mayer
11. meg from disney's hercules - i won't say (i'm in love)
12. death cab for cutie - sound of settling
13. meg and dia - halloween
14. kanye west - street lights

sara bareilles' "gravity" STILL gives me goosebumps and elicits the need to scream my lungs out and shut up and listen at the same time

just so i can look back and laugh

she has been, and will always be -- the entertainment of my life hahaha

note: phone conversation consisted of 90% laughter, 5% inaudible dialogue because of said laughter, and eventually 5% of our short stories being told

i see your mouth in slow motion when you sing; more subtle than something someone contrives, your movements echo that i have seen the real thing

-incubus, echo

tw-obsessed much?

korean twitter? btw, i only primarily use twittelator and tweetdeck (i keep it because i hear the update will be epic). i really loved tweetie but c'mon, i can't have more than one great twitter client; that's just crazy.

the funniest tweople gotsta be @darthvader, @johncmayer, and @rainnwilson. my faves folder is seriously filled with their little blurbs and quips. adrian, i know you're reading this; www.twitter.com/darthvader. you. will. love. it. you nerd.

the i am spartacus sessions #002

01. across the universe soundtrack - girl
02. aj rafael & jesse barrera - she was mine
03. anjulie - love songs
04. she & him - why do you let me stay here
05. tilly and the wall - rainbows in the dark
06. coldplay - life in technicolor ii
07. rilo kiley - portions for foxes
08. snow patrol - chocolate
09. adele - daydreams
10. a tribe called quest - can i kick it
11. india.arie - can i walk with you
12. musiq soulchild - just friends (beat box mix)
13. tupac feat. nas - thugz mansion (acoustic)
14. nevershoutnever - trouble

so they say, they say in heaven, there's no husbands and wives; on the day that I show up, they'll be completely out of their forgiveness supply

everything i want to say right now isn't appropriate, and may never be heard.

the i am spartacus sessions #001

01. castledoor - dumpster diving
02. bright eyes - the first day of my life
03. feist - mushaboom
04. dan black - hpntze
05. nujabes - feather
06. binary star - reality check
07. fleet foxes - white winter hymnal
08. kevin devine - alabama acres
09. cavil at rest - who knows, who cares
10. priscilla ahn - are we different
11. kings of leon - use somebody
12. the wonders - that thing you do (live at the hollywood television showcase)
13. imogen heap - hide and seek

(500) days of summer

with rachel dejesus